Far From the Tree

To quote Kip Dynamite, “I love technology.”

I’m not a super-geek, but I am a geek. I admit it. I like neat gadgets. During our trip to Louisiana last weekend, my mother-in-law asked me how I knew about the Kindle and the iPad and all this technology. I was stuck for an answer. I couldn’t exactly say, but I also couldn’t imagine not knowing about this stuff.

Along those same lines, my father-in-law is really good at carpentry, home repair and the like. I play along, but feel pretty inadequate about my own skills in that field. But when I installed a wireless router at their home last Christmas and tried to explain how to troubleshoot it, his whole tone of voice changed and he sounded . . . pretty much what I sound like when he starts talking about carpentry.

Now, it’s not like I’m always buying the newest and greatest stuff. I don’t play video games (I have too addictive a personality), I never adopted Blu-Ray, and most of my computers are from Apple’s refurbished store (same warranty, decent discount). And I tend to ride devices into the ground. I virtually never trade up unless a device is near the end of its service life. This has put me in a conundrum.

I use an iMac for my desktop computer at home. It’s a 24″ refurb model from mid-2007 and it runs perfectly fine (although it’s a little pokey trying to deal with my ridiculously outsized iTunes library). Amy uses it for her photo processing, and I do writing, research and general webbery on it. It’s outlived its 3-year AppleCare warranty window, but doesn’t show any sign of impending failure.

I’ve been pretty happy with the old machine, and figured I could keep riding it for another year or two, but I’ve just discovered that this computer is too old to run Lion, Apple’s new OS.

That’s right. Mr. Tekmology owns a machine that’s too antiquated. So now I have to decide whether I should pick up a new (refurb) iMac just to be able to use all these neat features. Can I just keep rolling along with the perfectly functional oldster, or will I start giving it resentful looks, irked that it can’t keep up with the hot new model?

(Cut me some slack: my old man’s mid-life crisis consisted of motorcycles, Corvettes and 18-year-old hairdressers, okay?)

BONUS!

While trying to find some info on my current iMac, I found the site where Apple keeps a list of all the devices I’ve registered with them over the years. (If you have an Apple ID, you can find yours at supportprofile.apple.com) Holy crap, has it been a pricey decade:

 

  • iPhone 4
  • Macbook Air (11-inch Late 2010): I managed to get $500 in trade-in value from Tekserve for my old Air, so this model didn’t cost me too much.
  • iPad 3G: two (Amy deserved one, too)
  • iPhone 3G: two (ditto)
  • iPod classic 160GB (Late 2009)
  • Macbook Air (13-inch Early 2008)
  • iPod 5th Generation (Late 2006)
  • iPhone: one (first-gen)
  • MacBook Pro (15-inch Mid 2010): for Amy
  • MacBook Pro (15-inch Core 2 Duo): two (I sold one to my boss; I can’t remember what became of the other one)
  • iMac (24-inch Mid 2007): this is the desktop computer that appears to be just too old to run the new OS
  • Mac mini (Early 2009): two (they were on sale in the refurb store; I gave one to my mom and use the other one to rip DVDs and serve up music & movies to my Apple TV)
  • iSight: camera for my OLDold iMac
  • iMac G5 (20-inch): the aforementioned old iMac. I gave this to my brother a few years ago; it melted down after around 7 years of use, which is pretty impressive
  • iPod (Click Wheel)
  • PowerBook G4 (12-inch DVI): I still have this 12″ PowerBook. I break it out once a year to print labels at our annual conference. The screen grows dimmer each year. It also weighs around twice what my current Air weighs
  • iPod (10 GB with Dock Connector): This one is lying on the floor of the WABAC machine.

The 10gb iPod cost $299 back in mid-2003. It was the third generation of the device. That was the model with the buttons that had slightly raised rings around them and red lights for the icons. It was, at the time, the greatest thing ever. My current iPod has 16 times that storage space and cost less.

The persecutor within

It’s been far too long, dear readers! But, as I mentioned a few weeks ago, the month of June is devoted to the Top 20 Pharma / Top 10 Biopharma issue of my magazine. In addition to researching and writing a shit-ton of profiles, I also had to transcribe and edit a bunch of interviews I did with major companies and their outsourcing partners. I hate that process, but don’t trust other people enough to let them handle it. (I have a weakness for Q&A-style articles, so I try to include one or two in every ish.) Late in the process (as in last Monday), one of the pharma companies told me that the person they’d given me to interview had subsequently left the company. In the two weeks between the interview and my sending them the transcript. They didn’t get around to telling me this for 10 days, and offered no solution outside of, “You can’t run any of his quotes.”

I built a lot of flexibility into the structure of this ish, so I can absorb the loss of a two-page article a week or so before press time, but I’m still peeved enough at their crap behavior to put them on my banned list for future publicity, articles, etc. I mean, it’s not like they’re even going to notice this, being a $20 billion company, but I have to have my petty triumphs.

Still, I finished writing my Tops profiles a day ahead of schedule, putting myself in a less stressed mode before tomorrow’s trip to DC for the annual BIO convention. I still have to clean up the page layouts and write short intros for the two features, but those will be manageable. (With a little work done over July 4th weekend.)

During BIO, I’ll be staying at a hotel called the Helix. If my room gets downgraded to a double, I’ll laugh at the cosmic jokester.

Anyway.

This is my first post in a while, and I thought I’d ramble about Bob Dylan. He turned 70 a little while ago, which got me listening to his music. I also found myself watching two of his great videos, Jokerman and Series of Dreams. On Facebook, I pondered whether any other musician has enough built-up history/iconography to freight a video like this one:

“Freight” felt like an odd but appropriate choice, given the artist and the video.

Amy & I also watched No Direction Home, Martin Scorsese’s 87-hour documentary about Dylan. Not being too much of an acolyte, I found a lot of the details and anecdotes illuminating. I thought it was interesting to see a documentary about a guy with encyclopedic knowledge of music made by a guy with encyclopedic knowledge of film. I was surprised at how at ease Dylan was in his interview segments. I was expecting a mystic making cryptic / gnomic pronouncements, rather than a plainspoken older guy. (Which isn’t to say that he was necessarily honest, just that he was speaking plainly.)

I enjoyed the documentary up until the last hour, when I realized it was only going to cover Dylan up to the 1966 motorcycle crash (with a coda of his first post-crash live appearance, in 1968). Don’t get me wrong; it was a really engaging documentary. I loved learning about the schisms in the folk scene, how Dylan evolved from protest-singer to rock star, how his relationships went, both with lovers and other musicians, how he dealt with fame in the early days, how he transformed himself from that kid from Hibbing, MN.

But I realized as the documentary unfolded that that wasn’t the Dylan I wanted to learn about, exactly. See, I was hoping that the narrative would continue into the 1970s (and maybe beyond). I wanted the Dylan who embraced his Judaism, became a born-again Christian, got divorced, recorded Blood on the Tracks, sank, rose. What I wanted, I think, was to find out how he tried to live once he got all the fame and riches, and had no idea what to do. A lot of the documentary involved the matrix of Dylan and his audience: how betrayed they felt over his distance from the protest movement, how shocked they were when he went electric (ha-ha). I would have loved more insight about Dylan when those audiences became stadium-sized and his popularity was more immense. How did he cope?

I guess I’ve always been fascinated by that question, “What next?” It’s because stories so rarely seem to end, so much as just stop. It’s why I’ve always adored Anna Karenina‘s ending, because Levin finally understands that there’s no miracle secret to living a good life. He at last understands the day to day negotiations to try to live better. I think what I wanted from a documentary of Dylan is some idea of how he dealt with his life once he achieved (what he thought were) his goals.

And that made me wonder about the filmmaker. See, Martin Scorsese has confounded my expectations in exactly this fashion before, with The Aviator. That biopic about Howard Hughes focuses on the industrialist’s movie-making aspirations, and ends just before HH’s obsessive-compulsive disorder sends him totally ’round the bend. Sure, there are a few scenes of him losing his grip for a while, but I was much more interested in the Hughes who wore tissue-boxes as shoes, never cut his fingernails, and whittled himself down to 90 lbs. by the time he died. A pal of mine, SF writer and critic Paul Di Filippo, had the same reaction when I mentioned the movie to him: “That’s the Howard Hughes that I find interesting. I wish the movie had started from that point.”

Of course, I understand why Scorsese would focus on HH-as-filmmaker, what with that aforementioned encyclopedic knowledge of film. But as a character, batshit-nuts Howard is much more interesting to me than young up-and-coming Howard. And post-rise Dylan would have helped (me) complete the image of Dylan as an artist and as a man. Or at least it would have put together a narrative sequence, like a series of dreams.

I’ll be with you in two shakes of a crying baby

Here’s a great interview with Peter Capaldi, star of The Thick of It and In The Loop (one of my favorite (black) comedies ever), and a supporting actor in Local Hero (one of the most wonderful movies ever).

This little bit — not indicative of the level of humor that permeates the interview — puts me in mind of my own anxieties-of-voice and that riff yesterday about the audience:

It was around this time that Capaldi says he started becoming chippy about not being English. “It was clear that people would have preferred me to be Daniel Day Lewis,” he says. “I just kept thinking there is no market for me, so I would become this other thing… a young, English, middle-class man. But that didn’t work either, because there’s plenty of those.

“For a long time I carried this… it’s not resentment, it’s fear. It was a fear of not being good enough, not being Daniel, or not being Hugh Grant or not being Colin Firth. It took me years to realise it was me bringing that stuff to the table – that when I would get into a situation if I was working with people, I’d blame them. Once I realised that it was a great eye-opener.” When did that happen? “Probably not until I was about 40.”

Go read it, and watch In The Loop and Local Hero. That’s my advice for a Sunday morning.

The Saddest Thing

The weather was so gorgeous today, I took a half-day from work. I thought about hiking some trails, but I can do that over weekend. Instead, I rolled up to Woodbury Common Outlet Mall to look for a higher-end tux discounted to cheap Jew levels. (My lack of formalwear nearly bit me on the ass this week, so I decided to finally buy one.) I ended up also buying a few shirts, a tie, and a new pair of Merrell Chameleons, to replace the ones that I had on and that needed to be burned.

I stopped at the food court around 2 to get a snack, and that’s where I saw the saddest thing:

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I thought about picking it up, but realized it was exactly where it needed to be.

Who Am I?

I’m the guy who seems to hold white people to higher standards of service than non-white people. At least when it comes to coffee.

If I get shitty service from a Starbucks (generally staffed by white people), I avoid returning to it for a long time. If I get shitty service at a Dunkin Donuts (generally staffed by Indians, Pakistanis, or Latinos), I cut them some slack and figure they’ll be better next time.

Wintertime Blues

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything of note. Here’s a list of reasons for that, but I’m not sure which ones have the most weight:

  • I suffer from anxiety
  • I suffer from mild depression and/or this winter has depressed the crap out of me
  • I have a lot of work to do at my day job and feel guilty if I “waste” writing-time on myself
  • I don’t feel like writing or sharing things that I once did, because Facebook has become the default destination for minor personal observations
  • I feel like I can outsource being clever to Twitter
  • I use my tumblr blog to post short book-excerpts and literature-related thoughts
  • I let myself get distracted and drown in tweets and RSS feeds
  • I spend too much time by myself and the lack of conversation really takes a toll on me
  • I feel tapped out and don’t have much to say (I think this is a big one, but it’s just a symptom and not a cause; I’ve started a couple of posts that just seemed useless, so I zapped ’em)
  • I make it too easy not to write
  • I would rather write a book of anecdotes and observations about my old man
  • I would rather launch a regular podcast, if I can just suss out some technical issues and get over my anxiety about asking someone to sit down for an interview
  • I would rather work with Amy to make video-montages set to music
  • I have a sneaking suspicion you’re all tired of my stories, observations and complaints
  • I have a sneaking suspicion that I’m a fraud
  • I don’t get around much anymore

I know that if I just get back to writing, it’ll alleviate a lot of the symptoms, but I just can’t do it. I’m afraid I sound like a DTC ad for an antipsychotic med.

Maybe I should go back to posting those What It Is updates every week, but I came to resent the imposition of those, too, just like all the other regular features I tried to write.

I often find myself singing John Entwistle’s song, 905: “All I know is what I need to know / Everything I do’s been done before / Every sentence in my head / Someone else has said / At each end of my life is an open door.”

It’s never a good sign for an adult to find life-parallels in any song by The Who. I’m gonna try and cheer myself up with some Sam Cooke.